Wow! What a shift in perception and thought. I am amazed as I sat down to reflect on how far I have come in the past 45 days. First and foremost, I fall asleep at night now to the affirmation of I love you Robynn Lynn Walker Kirkham. It is truly amazing to be able to say this without any judgement or negitivity. I have worked so hard to understand what my contracts are and how they manifest themselves in my life. The biggest thing that I have had to overcome, and still am, is my self esteem. Having the victim in my first house, a mentor in my second, the JUDGE in my third, and my prositute in my fourth, I get a wammie in the fact that I need to love myself and look within. I repeat the mantra "I let my feeling heart feed my thinking mind". I do this when I find myself engrossed in my head. My victim is learning to accept accountability for only me and letting everything else and everyone elses garbage go. I am looking for lessons from experiences instead of looking at failures or problems. I am being AWARE! It is amazing the energy shift that you go through when you ask yourself "What am I feeling and why?"
I am setting an intent for the day and sticking to it. You know its funny, but I set my intent and ask for guidence when I am in the car on my way to work. I find it is the only time in the morning where I don't have any kids, spouse, or hurry associated with my morning. I turn off the radio, sit in silence and talk openly outloud to god. When I get out of the car, I step into my day and intent. I would love to shift my morning to one like Deonne's. The hot tub and meditation would be awesome. I am getting there with incredibly small baby steps.
I am also journaling every night. I have done this faithfully for the past two years, but as I look back over my journaling, I have noticed that my journalling has changed. Instead of writing about what happened that day, I write about the lessons I am learning or experiences that I am having. I also write funny things the kids do, but its mostly a record of my spiritual change.
I am open, I am learning, I am living in the compassion and love of my judge. I am quieting the inner racket in my head and feeling the love and light in my heart. I am communicating my feelings and thoughts with a spouse who is learning to accept the real me without judgement. I am in a place where I am seeking my highest potiential and looking forward to assisting anyone I can. I am providing service and support. I am finding the real Robynn.
I am also finishing up my Reiki Master. This is way cool too. I have been working on it for over a year and feel that I am finally ready
That is the good parts of this past couple weeks. The not so good part is that I am tired. Some days more than others. I get overwhelmed when I think of all that I choose to do and all that I want to do. Sometimes they just don't match up. Ok most of the time they don't. I am having trouble sleeping at night because I have a hard time quieting my mind. I am learning to work through this with some of your awesome suggestions.
Namaste, I love you all!
I am setting an intent for the day and sticking to it. You know its funny, but I set my intent and ask for guidence when I am in the car on my way to work. I find it is the only time in the morning where I don't have any kids, spouse, or hurry associated with my morning. I turn off the radio, sit in silence and talk openly outloud to god. When I get out of the car, I step into my day and intent. I would love to shift my morning to one like Deonne's. The hot tub and meditation would be awesome. I am getting there with incredibly small baby steps.
I am also journaling every night. I have done this faithfully for the past two years, but as I look back over my journaling, I have noticed that my journalling has changed. Instead of writing about what happened that day, I write about the lessons I am learning or experiences that I am having. I also write funny things the kids do, but its mostly a record of my spiritual change.
I am open, I am learning, I am living in the compassion and love of my judge. I am quieting the inner racket in my head and feeling the love and light in my heart. I am communicating my feelings and thoughts with a spouse who is learning to accept the real me without judgement. I am in a place where I am seeking my highest potiential and looking forward to assisting anyone I can. I am providing service and support. I am finding the real Robynn.
I am also finishing up my Reiki Master. This is way cool too. I have been working on it for over a year and feel that I am finally ready
That is the good parts of this past couple weeks. The not so good part is that I am tired. Some days more than others. I get overwhelmed when I think of all that I choose to do and all that I want to do. Sometimes they just don't match up. Ok most of the time they don't. I am having trouble sleeping at night because I have a hard time quieting my mind. I am learning to work through this with some of your awesome suggestions.
Namaste, I love you all!